I Feel Like Crying
May 13th 2009 21:00
A few weekends ago I was hanging out with Brett and playing with his cats when we started having an argument.
Brett had some digital music TV station on in the background which was playing various “party tunes” as it liked to call them. All of a sudden, they played REO Speedwagon’s Can’t Fight This Feeling.
When I was a teenager, this was one of my favourite music videos. I loved the cycle-of-life theme. At the time, I was too engrossed with winning my argument with Brett to pay any attention to the video, much to my regret later on.
So thank God for Youtube. A few mouse clicks and there was my video. Watching the baby boy grow into a man who then marries and has his own son and then losing his wife when they approach old age made me want to cry. To compound my sadness, I started re-reading my companion animal book collection. The first cab off the rank was Goodbye, friend by Gary Kowalski. It must have been pure serendipity to select that book as, along with offering spiritual wisdom on how to cope with the loss of a companion animal friend, the book’s major theme is also the cycle of life.
I ended up reading it with Can’t Fight This Feeling ringing in my ears. Each night, I would replay REO Speedwagon songs in my head until I ended up buying their greatest hits compilation.
The song and the book made me feel poignant. I then spent my evenings playing other power ballads such as Foreigner’s Waiting for a Girl Like You and flicking through Goodbye, friend until I felt like crying. I would then curl up in bed with photos of Butterscotch (I would also look at photos of Gingersnap if it wasn’t for the fact he doesn’t like being photographed) and think about how precious life is and the unfortunate day when I will have to say goodbye to my beloved boys. For some reason, this routine actually helped me overcome my insomnia.
Any pet owner could relate to the terror of having to deal with the loss of their beloved companion animal. My boys have taught me to appreciate life and to let my friends and family know I care about them before it’s too late. I can’t imagine life without my human and animal friends. In fact, I am sure Brett is jealous of the fact the main reason why I like hanging out with him at his place is so I can be with his cats.
Amazon book excerpt
Brett had some digital music TV station on in the background which was playing various “party tunes” as it liked to call them. All of a sudden, they played REO Speedwagon’s Can’t Fight This Feeling.
When I was a teenager, this was one of my favourite music videos. I loved the cycle-of-life theme. At the time, I was too engrossed with winning my argument with Brett to pay any attention to the video, much to my regret later on.
So thank God for Youtube. A few mouse clicks and there was my video. Watching the baby boy grow into a man who then marries and has his own son and then losing his wife when they approach old age made me want to cry. To compound my sadness, I started re-reading my companion animal book collection. The first cab off the rank was Goodbye, friend by Gary Kowalski. It must have been pure serendipity to select that book as, along with offering spiritual wisdom on how to cope with the loss of a companion animal friend, the book’s major theme is also the cycle of life.
I ended up reading it with Can’t Fight This Feeling ringing in my ears. Each night, I would replay REO Speedwagon songs in my head until I ended up buying their greatest hits compilation.
The song and the book made me feel poignant. I then spent my evenings playing other power ballads such as Foreigner’s Waiting for a Girl Like You and flicking through Goodbye, friend until I felt like crying. I would then curl up in bed with photos of Butterscotch (I would also look at photos of Gingersnap if it wasn’t for the fact he doesn’t like being photographed) and think about how precious life is and the unfortunate day when I will have to say goodbye to my beloved boys. For some reason, this routine actually helped me overcome my insomnia.
Any pet owner could relate to the terror of having to deal with the loss of their beloved companion animal. My boys have taught me to appreciate life and to let my friends and family know I care about them before it’s too late. I can’t imagine life without my human and animal friends. In fact, I am sure Brett is jealous of the fact the main reason why I like hanging out with him at his place is so I can be with his cats.
Amazon book excerpt
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Comment by Nevar
Is Why
Cats are cool, they treat President or child alike.
Either can serve as their doorman, back scratchers, litter box cleaners.
Cats will occasionally bless that same President or child by tromping across their prone bodies and stick their bottoms in their face prior to laying down to enthrall them with their soothing purrs ~ and snoozing.
Cats are the great equalizers.
Comment by Queenie
Quirky Folk
Quirky Queenie
Comment by Nevar
Is Why
Somehow, I think Brett would speak out if it were a problem . . . hey, does he read your blog? If so, it may not be a problem. Best to you and your guys.
Comment by Queenie
Quirky Folk
Quirky Queenie
Brett loves his boys as much as I do so I was half-joking when I said he was jealous. He loves to pick them up and kiss the side of their faces. Unfortunately, he doesn't read my blog.
Comment by Nevar
Is Why
By the tone on your post, I didn't think for a moment that there was a jealousy issue; I was hoping to tease a smile of you. Songs often make me feel a bit nostalgic.
Sometimes I'll sit for hours with my wife while she watches soap operas in Korean, Thai, Chinese, English and a host of other languages, that make her run the gauntlet of emotions and when she cries, I give her a tissue, a hug and silence until she's ready to talk. And the tears are usually based in nostalgia land.